you
I don't know why we all hang on to
something we know we're better off
letting go. It's like we're scared to lose
what we really don't even have. Some
of us say we'd rather have something
than nothing at all, but the truth is...
to have something halfway is harder
than not having it at all. you're really near perfection. I have this whole you're-too-good-to-be-true thing going on in my head.
Really? are you like that? zom-gee.
All the coffees, the expensive dates, the friends, the conversation, the walks, the perfect movie....it's like magic.
As said countless times, even if things do not work out and we end up as friends, I will never stop thanking God for allowing our paths to cross. It is a miracle.
Name me one downfall about you.............................................
and I promise, I'll let you go.
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tagskie, at
Wed Nov 04, 01:30:00 AM
Tempered glass Is God making things difficult for me? or REALLY easy for me?
As we grow older, with life experiences, we tend to tread on glass more carefully. That's why there are engineers that make tempered glass so that the injury will be less severe.
i am at a loss for words. not many things in life can leave me at a loss for words. because I always have so much to say. I have an opinion for everything from how to milk a cow to how facebook should ban stupid farm games.
Starbucks was a good start. We could talk till the cows come home..Guess the cow did come home eventually.
First place was an unusual one - a very different one.
I don't know. I'm losing track of the days. I forgot where we went on what day doing what. I rmb all the coffee and conversations we had. More importantly, I remember how you make me feel. I can't shake off that feeling. It's like im caught in this whirlwind and there's no way to get out of it except to sit thru it.
I like you. but you scare me. your guts scare me. your charm, your near-perfect everything scares me.
I want to describe it so badly but I just can't. I don't know how to explain it. It just feels really right.
It's like a dream come true. It's like a combination of the best I can ever hope for is knocking at the door and asking for a chance.
If I were to let it walk by, I deserve to never meet THE guy again. Because some people wait for god knows how many years to meet someone like that.
And I'm turning 23 this year, and I've met him. I can only wish for one thing.
I wish I met him earlier so I get to spend more time with him.
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seriously. this is getting a lil difficult. I don't really know what's gonna happen but I'm just gonna go with the flow.
I guess if he's making the call, I don't really have much say huh ..not that i want to.
and I guess if he's persistent and ok with the deal, I'm okay too.
I duno. God, why do you put me in situations like these all the time? Is it cz I stopped going to church?
I see dream guy - compatibility, stable job, intelligent, funny, futuristic, safe, planning, good looking
I see dream qualities - patient, loving, caring, funny, gentle, good looking, smart, supportive.
I want 2-in-1
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Facebook & Damansara Restaurants and farms? Really. You wanna FEEL like you live in the Midwest? I've been there. Let me tell you, it's not anywhere near living in PJ. But seriously...Bush doesnt even give you grants for this, for cryin' out loud! fyi, it takes up alot of news feed space too. *just informing*
Gawd i LOVE pj! It's the snobbish thing to say but I'm still gonna say it. It's like the whole i-live-in-manhattan-and-therefore-will-never-live-anywhere-outside-of-manhattan-kinda-thing. I live in PJ and will ABSOLUTELY never tolerate living anywhere else other than PJ.
Nope.
Puchong is not PJ.
Subang is not PJ.
Sunway is not PJ.
Kepong is not PJ.
TTDI is not PJ.
Sg. Buloh is not PJ.
Kota Damansara is not really PJ.
So yes, Damansara ppl may seem snobbish but you can only say so once you've lived here. Because, really, I will guarantee you that once you live here, you'd turn into this Damansara bitch that you've never met.(and probably neither have I.)
Only because I live in Damansara and therefore, am allowed to feel this way.
The world revolves around Damansara. Literally. *really proud*
That being said, I have plenty of friends who live all over Selangor* and I love them to pieces.
*(Selangor = 7 mile radius from PJ)
So no, Rawang isnt Selangor. Rawang is ......just Rawang.
But it's ppl who live THAT far away and still hangout in Damansara that makes me love them even more.
Sg. Long friends are awesome! Coz they live so far away but they hangout in PJ.
Far is like really far. It's like driving and driving and driving and still going nowhere. It's like that camera trick in movies, they show the lady behind the wheel and apparently driving but her background just stays stagnant. She doesnt move. Basically.
So yeah, its like WHEEEEE. I reached Cheras. So where's Sg. Long? Nope, not in sight. So keep driving. Then, WHEEEEE, I reached Kajang. Just keep driving. Then you'll see Sg. Long Golf & Country Club. That's friends. Thank you, Steven.
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Compatibility.... is what I haven't felt in exactly 5 years. Even so, it doesnt even come close to this.
This is pretty amazing, I gotta admit.
Criterion coupled with attraction.
Timeless.
No physical attraction, really just the personality.
I guess some things in this life still does exist :)
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I dont think .....this is what having options feels like. But this is also what boredom feels like. I have a choice to do one of a few things:
*Charity work
*Dance lessons
*Mandarin lessons
Which one should I take? I need to occupy my time with more useful activities other than watching movies, karaoke-ing and yumcha-ring. I could still go to the gym for another 2 weeks. and play badminton once a week.
Someone told me to be prepared to be jobless for about 3 months because it's not that easy. But I've not been working for almost 5 months since I came back. Well, technically, im jobless for 2 weeks but still.....
Lalalalalala.......I want girlies. I have no girlies anymore. Where's ichen, sara, jannah, yuen leng, chui wa, cass?
I'm bored of boys. They are after all ...the same.
A friend suggested:
a) I could ask them on a date and make them do funny things.
b) I could watch them fight over me. ----> that'd be AWESOME!.
I really like b).
Point is: Always make whatever ur doing fun and that way it'll be less of a pain and more of an entertainment. Who doesnt love entertainment? I love fun. I'm gonna go with b).
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Phuture .....wasnt as packed as before.
but still packed. prefer the crowd at velvet.
Random night. Met ppl I shldn't have met. Did stuff I shouldnt have done nor do i usually do. WEIRD. but awesome.
Things are a lil fucked up now. But, i guess with time, it will pass. Then the dynamics will change too.
Why can't I just go back to US like how it was planned? Then EVERYTHING would be settled. Now I have to think of so many things just because I'm not going back. I have to have an answer for everyone that asks why am i not going back? Why am I still not working after so long?
I am not answerable to ANYONE.
Get that right.
I am greedy. I just wanna have fun. Is that so wrong? I stopped going to church because I don't know what I'm believing in anymore. Miracles? Patience? None of which are coming.
I really just wanna go back to New York. I just want back my original plan. There's not one day I don't think about it.
I miss New Malaysia.
I miss Cliff St.
I miss 31st and Park.
I miss Dunkacino.
I miss coffee everyday as a staple food.
I miss dressing up.
I miss James. so much. I miss the Brooklyn Bridge sunrise mornings. Gorgeous.
I miss talking to you when you're drunk.
I miss doing nothing Saturday afternoons.
I miss doing nothing Sunday afternoons.
I miss making your bed, cleaning out your closet, cleaning up your room.
I miss rushing to work for the 4,5 train on Fulton.
I miss waking up to no one at 10am knowing you went to work.
Can I get my life back pls? There are things I'm still holding on to because I'm hoping for a miracle.
