yup, im a lil late but so wat?
we are 18 months the time of our life.
= one and a half yrs for those of u who cant count ....cw cw cw cw
i love him to bits....he's almost everything ive ever wanted....almost, round it up to ALL. that makes him 100% perfect for me and NO ONE, i repeat, not one bloody bitch shall take him away from me..
so yah , plan plan plan...
the parents better say yes or ill be so pissed that u will see my face in Star newspaper. they will be looking for me nationwide. that wld be so cool. not.
so if u think its not cool, then let me go.
toodles. dootles. muaxxies.
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quote unquote from my mum
"u want total freedom then u be responsible for yourself totally".
what the heck is that supposed to mean? financially as well? cmon, thats just being plain dumb. but just as she alwis is. wtf man?
dad's gone to genting for 3 days..leaves me to rot at home alone without someone to fetch me to college..sigh.
my bf is getting at my nerves. seriously. first its the girl in the group that he alwis yumchar with. its bugging the hell outta me. cmon, i alr told u no contacting her last fri nite. now, its monday nite and here u are smsing me asking for permission to yumchar with them .wtf? i said if she dont go, then can la..but if she does, ur not allowed to. ok fine, i didnt keep to my end of the promise too.. and thats cz im so sick of this whole thing. he made me promise not to keep in touch with jon anymore. he was being REVENGEFUL! he had nothing against jon anymore. prior to this, i was allowed to contact him. when i tell him he cant contact this gal, he gave me this shit. but whatever. God alwis has it that whenever we agree on sth bout jon, the very next day, jon wld msn me or ask me sth or contact me. its funny. and just exactly that happened.
in dec 2005, he banned me from contacting jon totally. he gave me a choice between jon and him. its one or the other. and even though that time i was so pissed bout the whole girl thing bcz of sth that he did, i never banned him from contacting the gal. now that i wanna do it, he bans me from contacting jon. thats just plain stupid. but then again, its good that he is telling me the truth instead of lying to me.
second reason he is getting at my nerves. and im not blaming him for this. he does not have as much time as he used to before i left. he is alwis bz with his work. the only time he is really really free is night time. and my parents being the stubborn way they are, refuse to let me out till late. and even thne, its only on fri and sat nites im allowed to go out. he is NEVER free during daytimes except for the occasional rareonce in two weeks or once a week. weekends? forget it. ill never go out with him on weekends daytime unless he takes off. which i think he is planning to this weekend. :) but i feel guily, cz that means losing income. but i really want him all to myself on a weekend. i mean, just like every other couple that goes out pak tor on sat or sun afternoons in 1U or klcc...and i never get that chance...
i havent even been to klcc or kl downtown since i came back from US.bcz he doesnt have time and that place is alwis jammed at nite and he doesnt wanna go there when its jammed...and bcz i cant hang out till late late at nite..
and this time, my parents dont leave for holiday as often as lastime or make rewuent trips back to melaka to visit my grandmother...so i got no chance of sneaking out. but i do plan to lie ...just one night...hehe!! maybe an overnight at a gf's hse...then i sneak off somewhere else...my parents are being plain and pure ridiculous....and its driving me insane...if i had a choice, i wld shift to subang...after all thats wat my mum wanted when i was doing SPM. she would go like this:
"After SPM ah, u learn how to wash ur own clothes..Nextime u go college, dont stay here! give me headache only! once u start college, i cant wait for u to get out of this hse!"
Mahai...as ur daughter obviously sakit telinga to hear such things la..but i tahan only...when i enrolled in Taylors, i spoke to her bout shifting to subang, she went like this:
"For what wor?!?? house cannot stay ar?stay in subang, waste rent money only..!!"
im like "lastime u say wan ma..." then she ternganga there..nth to say. ...
sumore before i went US , she said "Aiyoh!! i cant wait till u get out of this hse and dont stay with me anymore!!!" guess wat? that time, my telinga also not sakit lor..my heart dem syiok sumore...hahahhaa!! cant wait to NOT live with her also...
the first week i went there, one of the nights, me and the malaysians there, we took a jog to the lakeside which was bout 1.6 km ...then we had supper after that and i got home around 12 ish, before 1 la...i tell u AH, the feeling ah, dem the syiok syiok man!!! hahahaA!!!! no nagging, no smses beeping thru, no fon ringing forever, nothing.WAHAAHAHAHA
then , sekali i go back to my room only, i saw msn msn msn msn msn message...hehehehe!~!! it was my sister..asking where i was...told her i just got back and stuff...she said my parents looking for me..wanted to talk to me...
when my dad heard that i just came back, the next day, called me on skype and was lie sort of lecturing me la...why so late la ..duno wat la..also forgot alr..i was thinking OMG! i m so far and u still wanna control me..im like ya rite!! activate ur remote control on me and see here got reception to receive onot lah!! haahhahahahaa!!
and after that, freedom was heaven...so much so , that it became a norm....so much so that when i came back here, things are like shit. especially parental control...arseholes!
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everytime i have sth interesting to blog about, im alwis doing sth even more interesting. Damn it! and when im free to blog, i got nth to talk about.
oh ya...last nite went to "Shall We Meet" for dinner at ss2. pat kin pat san. food there wasnt too bad... then went to puay chai school for awhile.... then drove all the way to kota damansara to meet up with a fren. then decided that we shld go to friendster cafe to yumchar. and that place wasnt happening enuff. why? bcz both guys didnt see any hot chix there. they didnt wanna waste time.then, decided to go mutiara damansara, then impulse decision: go hartamas. reach there, no parking. wtf? so the two males talk talk talk, from damansara uptown to bangsar to taman tun....finally decided on.....
SS2! where we started out. feel like smacking them both. guys! indecisive.
went to yippie cup and watched football. argentina vs. serbia.
those cut-throat ppl. RM9 per drink regardless of type. water = RM9 . beer = RM 9
con men. the only good thing that came out of it was i got to watch the match. and teehee :-)
there was a leng chai there. teehee :-) :-) :-)
he was wearing this orange color jersey like thing with his hair nicely gel-ed backwards and he wore specs. he sounds like a nerd the way i describe him. but trust me, he wasnt. he was like hot man! like just hot hot! aaaaaaaaa!!!!! oooooooooo! ok .nuff.
but there was one other guy even hotter. he was wearing black shirt. and sittting at my table. he was hot as in smokin' hot.flamin' hot. i just lovedthe way he dressed that nite. like wOw.
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The Trauma drama rama Im traumatized.uberly. my eyes are painful. and sumwhat tired. it was the most unproductive day of my life. yet not insignificant. im a weakling. 45 mins and i just couldnt.
take it slowly with me. i need patience to counter my impatience-ness.
photoshopped a perfect photo.printed it on glossy paper. gave it to him. just to take it back 5 hours later.
im doomed. work it out. work it off. we dont want it. but he cant lie. i rather fight 99999999999 times than not being with him. i rather sit there being angry at him and crying than not even having the chance to do so. i might have just lost my fighting privileges.
now im on the bridge. to turn back or to walk on.
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Love Language test took this test here . thanks to bernard hiew. my results:
Quality time: 9
Acts of service: 8
Words of affirmation: 5
Physical touch: 4
Receiving Gifts: 4
Hahahahahahahah!! so now u know how to love me. which is most important to me huh? *hint*hint*... =)
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pizza....its bizzarre my parents just ordered dominoes pizza. so i tot i'd give it a try. took one piece of hawaiian.and one piece of pepperoni.
Result: tasted like my staple food. tasted like sth i just didnt wanna eat for the rest of my life.
just no feeling. not thrilled, unlike lastime.
and i feel disgusted that my brother and sister were fighting over the last piece of pepperoni. eew!
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im vain. as in extremely. so.......what's new? =p
i can stare at myself in the mirror for 15 minutes. just looking at my beautiful self. and not to mention looking at every single imperfect parts of me. from head to toe. too many pimples. face too chubby. legs to fat. too many scars. tummy too round. backside too many stretch marks. boobs not big enuff. too short. sigh...the list goes on.
but there is one part of me which i love love love so much. actually not one lah. few lah. i soooo love my eyes. eyelashes, they are fantastically long and i dont have to use mascara unlike sum ppl. they have to rush out to the nearest guardian store when their mascara runs out cz they cant afford to look like they are eyelashes-less. and my lips. i love my lips. they are no amber or jolie's but what the heck? i love it! and before my hives, i love my legs. now, i despise it. i havent worn a single skirt since i came back here 3 and a half weeks ago. boo.
sitting/standing in front of a mirror and staring at urself is an art u have to master. its called the art of loving urself and appreciating what u have and of cz for appreciating every ONE thing, u criticize 10 things. its not that i love criticizing, its just that these 10 things are so much easier to spot than the ONE darn thing. oh ya, did i mention i love my butt? wahahaah!! i have the sexiest butt alive! woot! like i said, love urself. u cant love urself too much. im really narcissistic. so its good i have him, so i can learn to love sumwan else other than myself. and of cz appreciate and criticize sumwan else too. teehee =)
ok, i have no pics. why dont i take pics when im out with him? ish...geram-nyer...
so this weekend i need to go to a camera shop to test out the camera im gonna get to make sure i dont get a crappy camera with 2 mp and zoom once and cant do nuts but it looks so cool ppl think its a handphone. i tot only dumb americans wld think its a handphone. apparently, malaysians are pweee-tee dumb too. and then im gonna get a super chun new olympus camera then i can cam-slut away.wheeeee
im going to rawang tmr for dinner. prawns.wheeeee! hope i dont get no hives. ill be meeting wei lynn, yi lin and winnie. sweeeeeettt!
then im finally watching da vinci code on sat nite. ya, im pretty kebelakangan zaman lah. then sun morning, taking the darling brother to watch cars.
the two things i dont like bout malaysia in comparison to US:
1. Internet connection. Tmnet shld be bought over and the CEO shld be kicked out and be replaced with my awesome Dad.
2. movies. they freaking censor the word *ass*. in US *fuck* also they dont censor. and they censor the scenes. potong stim. alr dem panas, then potong. msia release movies dem slow compared to US. geram-nyer. and i can never seem to get tix, which is why im only watching da vinci this saturday. boo.
hope all of u have a fanta-bulous weekend! and if u see me in 1U on saturday night and on sunday morning, pls say hi to me and dont laugh at me. i did not sleep over in 1U. im spending time with the 2 ppl i love most in my life.
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the beautiful redang picture made into a jugsaw puzzle and pieced together by him for my birthday present...amazing ppl come up with amazing ideas....
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Scene of Baskin Robbins on 31st May where all their handpacked ice cream falvors are 31% off the original price. not surprising to see the place was 99% infested with a type of human species who were holding on to their purses tightly while picking thier flavors and they are of different sizes and shapes.....and not to mention hair color....i waited for half hour to get my tub of ice cream...blundering females who waste my time lining up.
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um, other pics are somewhat rather personal...and i wish to keep it for my own references. =) however, i did do the collage of me with words....kindly marvel at my meagre photoshop skills.
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Sigh did so much that i got no time to update...went to marche movenpick last weekend...
ate my CRABSSSS alr....haaha.love it..but must have multiple rounds before i go back....
in an "open" relationship, one should be open bout everything...and not throw horrible words or phrases around...such is not the case, i guess....she still needs to learn the meaning of keeping promises and openness...cz her words hurt like HELL. stinging. and i so HATE her for what she says bcz she doesnt make sense.
and maybe me staying so adamant for what i believe in might not be a good thing after all. look at its outcome. it isnt the best solution. something better could have came out of it , f only i had made the right decision.
but then again, in life, it is alwis the IF. without the IF, we cannot imagine our lives. so we put the IF to test. and sumtimes we fail. ok, im crapping. duno wat nonsense im talking bout.
point is my mum is saying things that hurt me. and my feelings. she knows it. but she goes on doing it every other day. one day one comment.
but im sticking with my decision not bcz i want to prove her wrong, but bcz i believe in my decisions. i believe i made the right decision. and in case, i made the wrong decision, im smart enuff to know that. i pray so.
no time to update fully la with pics and all though i got some pics now....too busy dating and having fun until i forgot that i have an econs quiz tmr...oh well, i ll just study at his place. see ya!
