I hope he sleeps better nowadays...I write him notes in the blank space at the bottom that goes unsent. and as I'm typing, I'm nervous that my finger may accidentally hit the send button. after i finish my short note, i erase it and thank god that it didnt get sent but my wishes have been written out and he was this close to reading what i really want to tell him. it makes me feel a lot better.

today i bumped into him.
"how are you coping?"
"im good. im doing okay :) how've you been? how's he doing?"

but i really wanted to say "im not okay" and give him a huge hug. i almost started tearing but i regained composure within seconds.

seeing him made me feel a sense of comfort, a sense of him, a sense of home.